Keep holding on

These two days have been pretty awesome. =D

I must have a promising future as a waiter in the future as serving teachers was actually a very enjoyable task. WTH haha. And got to see seniors return X D

Jie Min.. The only one of her batch who looked at the camera==

Wei Lin, receiving her Academic Achievement award

Later on, me, Hue Ching, Marissa, Kai Xiang and Kian Mun took the LRT to Pasar Seni to look for the stock for their civic project sales. I only found out yesterday that Pasar Seni is where Petaling Street is =__= And it has made me realised how long it has been since I last visited the place. How I miss the food, the comic store and the cheap Chinese bookstore T. T

Anyway, we practically walked all four sides of the place to search for stock. And we entered one place again by accident.

(Oh no! I just lost one important piece of info, and it's most likely in school T.T)

Today was full of some uncomfortable moments =/. And the both of us took more than a hour to find our destination, which was so near. Fail==. Though it was pretty worthwhile, I wanna see those kids again X D

And, omg, will we appear on tv? o.0

Your company is always great X D. Though it seems to indicate a shift in your behaviour. Anyway, good luck tomorrow. ^^

Would you believe me, would you agree?

I must not be destined to succeed in Sports event. ><

First Cross Country, now Sukan Tara.

Well, Peluru was gotten over and done with (Point!) X D

100m was epic FAIL.

Long jump, I had no idea what happened==.

And 600m was major disappointment. I shouldn't have sprinted so fast at the start (I was actually first ,wth, for that moment==). Then I think I got so surprised I slowed down. HUE CHING overtook me and I started getting more and more behind till I...failed...SIGH

But but...at least I was there =) (?)

And and truth be told, it pains me the most that I lost to YOU. Damnit, this better not turn into another SY/DW dilemma. Though, there are times where I really empathize with him, though I find it very ridiculous myself.

Shyte.

And since when did YOU learn to swear? o.0

Sorry, I screwed. Even when I tried, it was not enough, I didn't give enough and I know it. Yet again. I LAIF

Not we, only you and me

The more I ponder about these things said, the more I feel that it is a whole bunch of BS==.

Am I in fault? Should I be a little more grateful, a bit more appreciative of this so-called consideration they are showing? I am, I believe, to some extent. But not to trust them fully. Because there are still things that point them in the wrong. I actually still doubt the sincerity in their words. Cause well, actions do speak louder than words


It's hard to believe what people say when they don't seem to give a damn in reality. A different mentality, a social catastrophe or as usual, an unread side of the story?

But, no matter, what was never meant to be shall never be. I shall just follow option 2 in my 2 sided story theory and walk away.

Time Well Wasted

Remember how last year, you spent worrying about what ifs and what nots, also on what to comes. How you used to fret over obstacles that with just the right amount of determination and effort, you could handle. Then, you would stop and wonder to yourself, why did you have the need to worry in the first place.

Remember how things usually fall into place (though not so perfectly but they ended up well in the end anyway) despite all your horrifying premonitions and plagued thoughts.

Despite everything, you made it through. =D

And you will again, Soh Zhi Min, so work hard, believe strongly and let fate handle the rest. ;)

btw, PERKUB was fun, exceeded expectations X D. The wonders of setting low hopes.

And it's funny how at the same place with different people, you could be in totally different moods. Time wasted well with the F4s yesterday. Don't screw up on Saturday ah you TWO!

When the world's crashing down. When I fall and hit the ground

Judging from the dates of previous blog posts, the weekends always seem to be where I get more emotionally..eh...unstable compared to weekdays. Or maybe I just don't have time to blog then. ==

Anyway, as today is a weekend. And a Friday to boot. Time for a more thoughtful post! And more of a ranting one too .X)

One thing.

One thought in my head that stops me from going all out to verbally assault and belittle someone.

To prevent me from releasing the bottled anger accumulating inside.

To stop me from being the psychopath, hostile, aggressive, cruel, spiteful (etc..) person that I am. ( Yes, I truly am like that X)

Is the constant reminding that there are two sides to every story.

Every person would have their own perspective of things. Why they do this. Why they say this. It would all come down to the way they think of things. So this would be why I seem to have the urge to analyse how people act. Though not to very good results. I need more practice haha.

Anyway, you wouldn't know how another person is thinking. The reasons for their actions have a tale behind themselves.You may get angry, you may dislike someone, you may get fed up with somethings and some people. But you may not know their stories, their background, their reasons. So, could you just blindly judge something based one side of the facts?

Well apparently you can. Because that's how most of the world works.

So when you get pissed off at someone/something, calm down, suck it up and try to think for a while about all the things they might have gone through. Try to empathise and walk away. Even if they serve no reason for your empathy, screw it and still walk away. You are better than that.

In conclusion, I should just keep my opinions to myself.

And I'm so happy for seniors who did well for SPM, especially the one who apparently screwed up studies in school and got 12 As in the end o.0.

P.S If you taste freedom, why do I feel impending DOOM?

P.P.S IWTBA T.T!

Rain On My Parade

Now that first term exams are over, meaning March hols are here.

And what do the March hols bring along?

A bit of this:




A chunk of this:


And a lot of this:


Yay? T.T

Smile, though your heart is aching

Damn, I am in trouble now =/

And exam's are coming. Double damn.

Should I risk the weekends....><

Things don't always go the way you want. I guess everything was just going into place too nicely till I forgot how cruel the world could be.

This must be a message. To tell me not to expect the easy way >< And to goddamn punish me for procrastinating.

It will be ok. It will be ok. It will be OK.

T_T I screwed.