It's not over...It never was...

How long has it been? How many weeks has it been since we actually had a conversation? Every moment that we share together, I wonder whether I should give in and end this silence yet, the barrier is there stopping me in my tracks, pulling us further apart.

I've felt despair, hopeless, and I really didn't want to care anymore. But if I didn't, would I be worrying about all this now. Fleeing from reality, running to others, trying to block you out, I am such a coward. Today, after "much" studying, I flipped through the handmade card you gave me for my birthday this year and I guess, I woke up. I remembered all those times, the ups and downs we faced together. I know, no matter how, when all else fails, you still be there standing alongside me.

No, our friendship was never a lie, it was foolish to even have that thought crossed our minds. And now, that it's wrecked and broken, I will pick those pieces and put them back together. Even if they may never be the way they were before, they will be stronger than before, surviving through that painful time.

I wonder, if you feel the same, were tears shed over the distance formed between us? Were those smiles you shared with others a mask to hide the pain as you hopefully glanced my way? Were there sleepless nights spent fretting over our tomorrow? If so, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, for how blind I was.
I'm sorry, for neglecting you.
I'm sorry,for not doing anything.
I'm sorry, for thinking of giving up.

Give me time to sort things out. Our light will never die. And soon, we shall laugh, smile, cry together and see each other eye to eye again.

As for now, wait. I know you will be fine =).

I will get you back, my dear friend.

First half over and screwed

Ok...3 days of exams are over..so we have a three day weekend...to STUDY..argh!..

Stupid report...stupid title...stupid pie charts...I knew it was do me no good writing them...

And for Geography..*sighs...sighs...*

Other subjects...*sighs more*

It's not over yet...there's still time to screw more...I mean make up for the mistakes I've done...=)

Trials

Sighs...PMR trials drawing nearer and nearer...

Don't feel like blogging..not even supposed to be on ><

Will blog more next time..

Good luck, comrades!

Sunday Sunday

My family participated in this treasure hunt organised by the Royal Lake Club... It was mostly the same(in terms of how they make the questions)as I joined 2 previous times before,but those were only kids ones. I see many teams sort of cheated(only 12 teams ),we were actually intended to walk around the area but some people drove.No matter, we won. Muahaha..It was this hamper with erm..food stuffs and a holiday voucher for some place in Seremban.

o.0 I got a Henna..which is this tattoo made from Inai, a herb paste. The RLC was celebrating its 118th Birthday and there were many stalls around the club,e.g food stalls, game stalls, other stall selling stuff. Not that many people around the place,except at the eating outlets..Malaysians and food..XD

Before: Inai still present

After: Inai removed =)

Waited till 8.40p.m++ to see Chong Wei vs Lin Dan..and I had this headache =(..Oww..
Wow..what happened out there? T_T...Lin Dan was way ahead...CW lost...No Gold for Malaysia.. But no matter,we still love him all the same(requested by Pei She to be said)

Celebrating Independance Day a bit too early...

Yeah..our school celebrated the Bulan Penghayatan Kemerdekaan(or something like that)...It was the same as previous years with the usual array of dramas,songs, marching,speeches and shouts of Merdeka. Our class watched it from the erm..2nd? floor of Block C. Both worm and puppy were there ^^. How ...nice?

The only special thing was the Traditional Costume Contest and that was screwed..For Form 3 category anyway..All could see that the only competition was actually between a1 and a2...But we(A1) only got 3rd >< and A2 didn't even get anything! All because of the music problem(for our class). Foul play! Robbery! When we got back to class, could see how disappointed Hui Li and Chen Lynn were =(...It's just so unfair...

Well, this lasted for the whole 4 periods before recess...And our recess got postponed. Me and Lyn didn't go down because there was only 5 minutes left so we just crapped outside/inside Lyn's class. Who knew...Results for Guide AGM came out....And Marissa said Worm got PR...Argh!..We should have gone down..Sorry Lyn..since I said to stay...Now we missed the drama...How unexpected. And I thought one of the F3 candidates would be kicked out..but no, all got post.

Nothing else really happened in school besides that..Not as exciting as I thought it would be.

8th August 2008

Yesterday was the day, the day that Chinese have been for to happen for like a hundred years- The Opening of the Beijing Olympics~ Damn RTM..they only aired the opening at 8.30 to make way for the news= = And Astro was no use as well...But never mind, at least I still gotta to watch some of the performances..But most of the show was the marching of the teams of different countries onto the stage.Boring...And that commentator guy said Malaysia athletes looked "bergaya" in their Baju Melayu..Oh Kay....

Then,yesterday again, was the Girl Guide's AGM..nothing much to say, nothing special.Actually, it's not even like our regular AGM because it was a Friday so -time factor= only voting, results not anounced(have to wait till Monday)+no installation, which is usually held together with AGM. Another reason why it's nothing much, is that I'm not part of it(as in nominees)..nothing special bout this too apparently...But after this, I've made some resolutions and HOPEFULLy I fulfill them. Like..well...
1) Stop procrastinating(extremely challenging task)
2)Stop blurring(equally challenging)but this habit can stay as long as it doesn't effect my productivity
3)Socialise more(probably even more challenging then above,I need worm's help for this)
4) Run for EIC( that is if i get into EB first,will will will...)
5)Run for UL,nah...too impossible and I'm already at a HUGE disadvantage but like a quote from 'PS, I love you', "Shoot for the moon, so if you fail at least you will be among the stars." or more like what Lyn said,"Aim for the stars, so if you fail at least you will be at the moon" because the moon is closer to us than the stars= =..So..I dunno..
6) Actually put 100% into something(added in) which seems impossible too ><
Btw, Band had AGM too and congrats to Ley Kuan for getting Assistant Woodwind Section leader..Aim for Vice President next year..since you don't want Prez=)

Then, today..we had school and it was the same as yesterday because we were replacing Friday, nothing special..Hmm..Yeah..

-Zhi Min-

Tagged by Shawn

The last person to tag you is?
Hmm..Quite some people tagged me(but I didn't do them)...Last tag I did was by..Pei She..XD
What relationship of you with him/her?
Friends
Your impression towards him/her
Nice,Caring,Understanding?,Hm...Playful,Crazy sometimes..=)
The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you
Talk about those matters with me..;)
The most memorable words that he/she has say to you
Hmm..Not sure, quite a lot, whatever she said that's memorable in our talks
If he/she becomes your lover, you will...
I don't think this is possible..
If he/she becomes your enemy, you will..
*Laughs Maniacally...She'll see then= =
if he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on
..........Not sure....
If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is..
She got Ed Board and I didn't!..Argh..=.=
The most desirable things to do to him/her is?
Hmm...Go and make A2 look real...bad somehow
The overall impression to he/her is..
Really nice person..lol
How do you think the people around you will feel about you
Silent..yet deadly
The character for you for yourself is?
Weird and a dreamer
On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
The dreamer part, the ambitiousness
The most ideal person you want to be is?
Myself?only better
For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them
Aww...Thank you...I'll always be there for you too =)

Knots

It's that time again...Guides getting their campaigns ready for the AGM~.........Lee Heng was first with her little...don't-look -like-a-puppy "teddy puppy"...One of my classmates even said it looked like an owl......= =

Stayed back at school for...nothing today...Walked around and see whether anything would happen...

Sonia wanted to borrow my library card to borrow books to get ideas for her campaign...Before we left, had to accompany puppy while she eats..Haizz...= =She doesn't talk to me..><..And I can't think of anything to say to her too..T_T...

At the libraray, found out my card wasn't here= =//..Puppy and Sonia left while I stayed with SL and Xy...We talked about Sl's campaign then went to pick up ..twigsXD Marissa came to help then we walked and walked till we ended up back at the canteen.

Jing Wen and Kai Sein were working on their campaign giveaways..And JW kept telling those cold jokes..MT was really frustrated cuz worm was 'lost' somewhere...

Then Worm appeared to do her campaign stuff too..Wonder why everyone(mostly)doing knots...? Soon, SL and Xy left for the book shop (and soon home)..Jie Min appeared too for some time..MT kept bugging worm to go make a telephone call with. After many aggravated sounds of '打电话..." and silence(from worm)..., they left so me and KS talked..The 2 came back and MT　left...Talked with Worm till about 4 and left for the bus stop way outside...

Quite fun..so staying back wasn't a waste...Hopefully my perspective of something doesn't get so influenced because of this...

Forget to mention that I saw puppy and S leaving school together...Sighs